The Prayer

A very famous prayer that depicts the nature of a common man of the modern era depicted as Kaliyug . It has the grey shades of a soul that seeks its salvation

Ami Akrodhi - I have no anger

Ami Amani - I have been humiliated

Ami Nirolosh - I am not lazy

Kamlava - Addicted to lust

Jit Boshi - Hate to lose

Ista Pran - Believer of His Holiness

Seba Patu - An efficient employee

Asthi Bridhya - Aged at heart and bones

Jajanjaitra Paramanda - Very very happy with chanting Gods name

Udiptyo Shakti Sambridhyo tomari santan - filled with the power of the eternal soul I am your son

Premo Pustho Chiracetan Ajar Amar amay grohon koro , Pronam lou - Oh ! Almighty , Immortal , Unaged , take my deepest regards and my soul and unite me to you and offer me my Salvation

Promises

You must have had a broken heart

To understand exactly the pain I feel

You must have been through a lot

To replicate my emotions in your sences

Never will anyone be able to make you cry

Baby, this is my promise to you

I'm going love you till I die

Baby , this is my promise to you

If you see me deep within my soul

There use to be a big empty space

Destroyed days and hungry nights had taken its toll

Everything got mended with just a gaze of yours

You came to me like a friend

But those green eyes gave it a new meaning all together

That will stay till the end of time

With my life getting a new relavation

Now all that I know is you and your memories

And I miss you like the dry grasses of summer miss the rain

You are the one in my mind when I listen to a love song

You've become an addiction of a drug that keeps away my pain

In my heart it will be only you

Baby, this is my promise to you

I live everyday just to see your moist lips shine

This is my promise to you

These is a sparkle of truth in your eyes

that speaks right to my heart

without saying a world you change my world

No matter how hard i try i cant stop dreaming

the way you hold me when i am cold

That makes my heart long for you

My heart will never stop beating for you

Baby, this is my promise to you

That million dollar smile on your face

Makes me go crazy about you

The moments that we spend together

Becomes simply magical with your presence

Time seems to have come to a stand still

As the smell of you drives me insane

You are and always will be my girl

Baby, this is my promise to you

...... Saptarshi

The Prophecy of Doom .......

Nearby is the day when the heaven above is going to fall apart

And all the solid waters in the tips of earth will escape
Nearby is the day when the mountains are going to melt

And flood into the sea and they'll know
That you and I were made to witness this
I was there to taste your lips
Holding on to each other to never break away

Nearby are the days my letters to you are going to burn

And will fall from the sky like snow
But until that day I'll make sure to let everybody know

That you're the one I love with all my heart and soul,

And you've never deserted me even when you are far apart
Because even though you were away

There was nothing I had left to fear

These are only walls of the situation that hold me here
Where I stand far apart in this crowded ground
Nearby is the day when I'll hold you like the breaths hold Life
And we will hear the approaching end

When radio-active clouds will caste overhead

To release the poison in the air

To erase life from the face of the earth

We don't have to be scared as we have each other

So even when we smell the crucifixion of our desires

Our names being erased from existence

And harsh words and criticism makes no difference any more

Competition, Jealousy, Anger hold no value

Arms and ammunition is no defense, human ego broken.

Nearby is the day when we die along with this world

...... Saptarshi

Blue .... My Life

Blue is the color of the blood in my veins

Poisoned by the stress and monotony

Blue is the screen that I gaze upon

For all day long to exchange my breaths for pay

Blue is the color of the sky that I look up to

And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night, you took my heart away
And I grieve wrapping myself with a blue night

In my dreams I can see you
Wearing the dress that had so many flowers in blue
In my dreams I keep holding you
And it feels so real and your love seems so true

Somehow I knew you could never stay
Somehow I knew you would leave me
I wished you could have stayed

And not made my tears iced and blue

The long spring afternoons blossomed

With the flowers so blue

Birds made their way back to home

As the sun set in the blue sea

I saw the boy next door dead and his lips are blue

They hid the poisonous snakes in them

Who had venoms that were made by men

Who make medicines to save me and you

Blue is the color of love torn apart

Blue is the color of dreams broken to pieces

Blue is the color of disappointment in a teenagers heart

Blue is the color of the bravest mask of a scared heart

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never stay

So love is red and not blue

But when love fails the heart bleeds till it's blue

.... Saptarshi

Unforgiven

He cried a tear of hope but it is lost in helplessness
The darkness ate away the depths of his soul, left him unforgiven
For the deepest love he had has dissolved before his own eyes
His sorrow is bleak, and he was the unforgiven one of the fight always

When all his emotions were consumed by a deafening silence

Sorrow is nothing but is unassuaged by disconsolate tears
He wanted nothing to live but just the love that he nurtured

In the years when he grew from a boy to a man

Crestfallen emotion, make him remember the sacrifices and heart ache
Swallowing a thousand years of anger and guilt of deeds
He did to everyone and himself drowning for evermore

Just for the Girl and her smile not to part with her lips

Falling deeper into fear his inner self is now

He admits the more he runs away from the lamenting memories

They never wash away and keep coming back to him

"Unforgiven" was the verdict that he received in every Judgement

They say time can heal every wound and pain

Then why won't it cure the scares of the beautiful love

That sanctified the demons of desire and was always unforgiven

He never could decipher the whispers of doom in the cry of love

And here he stands all broken and dispirited

With is arms spread open , look up to the Father up there

Begging for a rescue from this unbearable pain of lost love

He breaths out his last gasp of air as he gets "Forgiven"

..... Saptarshi

Angel

As I drift away .... far away from truth
I feel all alone in between insanity
All around me, I keep thinking
Maybe there is no escape for me
Hatred, filth and Obscenity
Making their presence too visible to be prominent
Happiness dies within within suffocating and drowned
Nothing made any sense to me when I hear
A thousand voice talking together
Swaying me away from consciousness
Fate tasted so bitter , that tears never stopped
I started walking all alone under the fading moonlight
There you stood like and an angel to smile on me
Never knew thats how I'll ever find you
Like a illusion, magic and utter tranquility
In you deep brown eyes I was lost before I realized
In the imperturbable smile
Making me feel you are the only one who keeps me alive
The eyes that hold so much of innocence
Unbelievably is so powerful that
It protects me from all the scotching sun
That burns me down and
The rain that washes me away
You are the angel that gives me the light
To walk through this darkness, so deep
You keep the blood in my viens flowing
As its your love, in my heart I keep


....Saptarshi

Kavita .....The Poem written in Heaven

As I dust the layers of dust over the old photo album, with my trembling fingers. I remember every person I have come across in my entire life, in a flash of a moment. And nobody I can remember that made an impression on me without being synonymous to pain, agony, criticism, betrayal and selfishness. I kept thinking how did I got so lost, when I was trying to go nowhere. All I was trying was to light a fire that will warm everyone, then how come everything around me become so so cold. And now it seems my future will be reflection of my past where I'll be relieving every moment I want to forget, against my will. I always foreseen gold and that turned into ashes, as I get closer to it

But when I realized one day that deep wounds in my soul are healing magically. This miracle happened after I met you. Your smile worked like a million words of consolation. You had a look in your eyes, saying you'll be my truest friend. Did not know you for long but still it felt like I know you from ages together. Never knew that this new dawn of life will change it forever. The sail that I set to pull me to dooms pushed me right to a priceless treasure. The treasure of your friendship. You name is a Poetry....... a Poetry of senses painted in the canvas of emotions, with the color of fantasy

Lately I have been asking to myself , if it can be true. Something has happened to me as good as you. You are so beautiful, that there is no way it can be explained in simple words of the mortal world..I realize every time I look at you, I see the poetry of the a thousand Gods written in ode to beauty itself. Wild flower like glow of your smile inthe starlit heaven. You enchant anyone who gazes upon you, and make their obsessions, rise up so high that the mind doesn't obtain freedom from the thoughts of your face

A timeless definition of a uncomplicated heart full of kindness selflessness and chastity, personified in the form of you, The meaning of unchained melody, your voice. The fathomless depths of your eyes seems to hold so many secrets locked deep inside them and yet so simple and incomparably innocent. Your soul is like a river peaceful clear and deep
Your absence becomes so unbearable that it burns right under the skin. Still burning in the flames of your absence is such a pleasure, as it all ends with the cool breeze of your sight

Long way from home nowhere to go did not know what made the life so cold. But you are the only one who turned a stormy winter to a warm and green spring. Tears kept dripping every now and then looking at the selfish and rude world, but you just came like a breath of fresh air drying all the tears and wading away all the fears. People keep saying that too much of anything is not good, but my soul says to me no matter how much I get to be with you, its never going to be too much or even enough. As you are the best woman I have a ever come across. And there is nothing in this world that I wouldn't give to keep you close to me


Saptarshi

The Letter

My Dearest Angel

Its is an inexplicably joyous moment for me as I received your letter today. I read the letter several times. Every time I read the letter I felt I was sitting right next to you and listening to all of that you have penned down.

Love cannot define the relation between you and me. Its something more than the mortal world's acquainted. Love cannot feel so convincing and paramount to the very feeling of existence. Moments that was spend with you, turned out to be the happiest memories. I acted like an imbecile causing you pain, so many a times. I regret my dim-wittiness so very much now. But I realize that was partly animated by my self-centric ego and false pride. And partly by the fear of losing you. Every time I saw people around you with their serpentine effort to influence you to a fake realm of emotion. Regardless of the reasons you have always forgiven me

It was always those ocean deep eyes of yours that tantalized me, and use to make my insanity for you reach to an new magnitude. I have never seen anyone that confounded me the way you do. All I have always known that happiness is being with you, holding you and a romancing with you in the long summer afternoon. Together we use to stare at the blue sky when the white clouds sailed through. I lost myself completely in you.


I am happy and sad at the same time today after the knowledge of your marriage. I am extremely happy as I hear that you are in the verge of a new beginning to your life. A new love to unfold all together. But at the same time my heart burns with the thoughts of you with another man. I am perplexed with the mixed emotions of myself.

Those tears that I restrained for years stay buried under me just as I know you are happy from here on. The that grief is confined within my soul is shattering me though I know there is nothing to shatter as you will be building your life all over and beautifully. Which destroys the sorrow in my mind. While some people yearn to get out lugubrious silence from the words of love, I am happy as I recollect those words again and again. It is the serenity in the image of memories that come by every time I think of you

Shall life renew these moments of love and affection. It will turn the pains of my breathing to reduce to nothing,all tears assuage. Fill the void veins of life, again with youth and wash with an immortal water, of true sentiments

Let this letter convey my apology for my acts to cause you pain and my true sentiments to you stating every moment I have always loved you

Forever yours


Saptarshi ....

My Best Friend

My paralyzed heart and my numbed senses
Kept bleeding profusely
My love torn apart to pieces
Desire to relieve became
A bleak garden of hopes and dreams to cry upon
When my dearest left me forever

Loveless life was never so real
Lifeline of mortality seemed nearing with every breath
I was condemned to solitude and misery
And restless oblivion forever
My dreams were vanquished driven to dust
Aspirations to live a happy life faded away
The respect for emotions died within
Never knew the way out of this anvil chorus

But somewhere stood a messiah right at my back
To heal my heart and make me recognizable to myself
He stood by me in the time when I needed help the most
As he had always promised me
He believed in me like a burning firelight
Tearing away those flickering pages that troubled my sight
Of the book I'm afraid to write
It's the burden of my days, it's the sorrow of my life
That cuts in like a fruit on the blade of a knife

But it's always him with his smile and consoling words saved every extinguishing hope
Taking me out of my sorrow in every life
There are promises that I broke and kept
Sometimes stood still and unspoken, when I should have wept
Hid all secrets, and words to confess
Still I lost everything that I possess
But there was something that I knew that won't die
There's a chapter of trust and faith where the ink will never dry
That is of my only best friend who still walks with me
Through my joy and the pain through the sunshine and rain
Stood by me, helped me fight the biggest battles
Of pain regret agony and insult ,stood by me like a ally


There was a phase of life where friends turning to foe
Conflicted with emotions and nobody won
Still the battles were lost on my side, with a taste of bitter defeat,
That's when I accepted my failure
But in those moments of my deficient physical vigor
He held me up made me a believer, and taught me
How can you climb a mountain to kill the sense of failing
Why do you cross unknown lands, to be victorious
How to build walls to protect from being defenseless

It for the same reason why he still holds on to me
Looking out for me when I drown in my own tears
When I burn in the pain of tyranny
When the reason for breathing seems meaningless
He kept revealing all the lies that was told to me
Every time a masked delude dawned up in the name of love

Before I could die of cold , you wrapped the warmth around me.
Like a fall in the night, you came silently.
But made such a deep impression of your fidelity
And now I have nothing, but that solidarity of yours to reflect upon.
All I wish now is only to vanish once more,
Just like all my yesterdays only you and me without the astriction of false emotions
Without the knowledge of where we're going, or where we'll confine.
I just know deep within that I'll always be languishing
For those moments when we both run away to anonymity
And to some far off lady to love.

Just when I gave up the fight of life.
You came to make the subjugation to a victory ,

And the wrong things right.
Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.
You have a name, I call you my best friend.

.... Saptarshi

Numbness of the silence

Darkness is my friend
And has always been a part of me
All alone inside the empty house
Yes I realize that you are there
I start to smile, as I hear your whisper
In the numbness of this silence

It helps me find out that
You are looking down right at me
Oh my love, I talk to you
Without making a sound
Whispering the words of love
You are still as much real to me
As much as you were, when alive
I realize that you are still in love
With me as much as you were
When you left me all alone in this world
And swayed all the way to the other
Now its only me, who dwells with you
Talking singing and romancing all day long,
Sometimes dancing in the rain
You are still around me
Protecting me from the cold world outside
And the numbness of this silence

You still smile at me and tell me
The right from wrong
When I don find a way
You are still the one who wishes me
Good night before I go to sleep
And bless my mornings
With a kiss right on my lips
You still stand by staring at me
When I am cooking breakfast
Telling me why you love me so much
And what you crazy about me
I can see your angry face when
When I return home late
Oh my love I still feel you
Console me after a bad day at work

As I see you hear you
Right next to me I feel you
Every breath that I live
I live only for you
Fighting every night from the
Numbness of the silence


.....Saptarshi

Looking at You

Looking at you , poets forget
Comparison of beauty
As you make the beholder sway
With the gracefulness of your smile
Like the golden sun rays sparkle
When they fall on the frozen streets
My eyes sparkle just by looking at you

Looking at you , the moon fades out
As she sees someone prettier than her
The diamonds and pearls feel shy
Seeing the glow in your face
When you smile, it feels like a long winter night
Has ended with a bright morning
Your lips are so magical that
And gives a brand new meaning to life
Even a dead heart starts thumping, just by looking at you

The ways you sway when you are happy
Is like a symphony of the tall purple grasses in the prairies
Your fair like the sunflowers
And your cheeks like the light pink orchids of autumn
The lustrous hair of yours are the thunderous dark clouds
Oh you are so beautiful
Like the sun shining down from the clear blue sky
You are so beautiful,
That there is no way I can explain to the world
Don't know whether to call you
An Angel or Princess, a Flower or a Miracle
Or Goddess of beauty itself


Looking at you ,I see my mind
Writing a thousand songs in praise
Painting pictures of you in my imagination
As I realize that a dying soul
Learns to live again
Just by looking at you
Witnessing the fathomless depths of the oceans
Right in your eyes,
I understand why God created you
The earth keeps turning
The sun keeps burning
Just by looking at YOU

...... Saptarshi

Never Stop Loving You

When the zyphere brush across the leaves
I can hear your whispers in the wind
Making me realize how much you loved me
And though you are not around, you are in my mind

Many many moments passing by without you around
Hopes still flicker inside of me in pain
Dreaming of your arms wide open, and love unbound
You holding me walking the city roads in the rain

I don't know why did I ever lose you
What did ever go wrong between us
The coldness around me makes me numb and blue
Baby, I still keep this heart beating as time pass

If only I could turn back time
I would have stuck on to you with my dear life
Done anything to keep your love, and you as mine
Would have never let you go, even if it cuts like a knife

Just tell me one thing what I should do
To turn the clock back and make you mine
Where shall I go, what shall I do without you
just want to hold your hand under the sky so fine

Seems like just a moment ago I was so much with you
Next moment you walked away and my world is falling apart
Take me back or I'll die as I can't live without you
My eyes are dream dry and my heat broken into parts

Burnt up within the bruises and the wounds
I want to knock at the door of your heart
Asking for a second chance, to make things turn around
Or the day will fade away to a never ending night will start

Even if I die trying to get you back
No regrets as my most priced possession is you
Your eyes are the magic and your presence is the charm
Though my heart is broken, it will never stop loving you


......Saptarshi



This is dedicated to all those people who have loved someone very dearly and lost them forever

Hey You.....

Hey you , hiding your feelings behind
The deep green eyes of your solitude and innocence
The glow of your beauty turns me blind
Makes me numb and fettered to my sense

Hey you, stirring me awake from tie long forgotten me
With the view of your fathomless depths of heart
It only you in everything that I see
You are giving my life a brand new start

Hey you, closing my soul in my day-dreams
Making me crazy by everything about you
The whispers that make me smile and scream
In so much joy, making my gray to a sunny blue

Hey you, loving me with your heart and soul
Caring for me like I have never been cared before
Thought of losing you leave my heart with a hole
With every passing moment, I keep loving you more and more



.........Saptarshi

Intense Emotions

Every stormy night has a dawning day
Every dark sky has a shining star
And it shines just for you baby
And you are the only one who shines for me

It is an intense emotion that fills my heart
The cold night keeps growing colder
The silence keeps growing louder
I'm craving to hear your whispers
Your heart warming care keeps me breathing
And nurtures the intense emotions
Hidden deep down in my heart and soul

When my heart is full of pent up feelings
And I don't where I wanna go
Or what i wanna do, and I feel
My losing is just a one way street
Then you stop right by me and pick me up
And touch my heart with all the emotions
When I suddenly see myself falling down
You save me every time
As I see that I've fallen right in your arms


I takes a lot to laugh, when so much sorrow
Pool in ans flow out in form of tears
But you were always there to wipe them away
And to tell me " Everything's gonna be alright"
When ever I second guess my existence
You heal my heart ache, and save my soul
When I am silent and staring at you
My soul says that you are the special one
With every drop of red flowing in my veins
And you are the one who keeps me from dying
You are the yearn of my intense emotions

.......Saptarshi

Confessions of a Broken Hearted Drug Addict

Life,betrayed me once again. I agree that some things that I have done will never change no matter how hard I try. But I was left all alone, crestfallen and all bruised up in my own pent up feelings. I have always let her self-centered mind magnify my agony. As she walked away from me seeking for love in the arms of another man, I stood still frozen unable to stop my tears that rolled out of my eyes. I was left without a choice but to live on a chemical dependency to hold on to my sanity. Flashback of memory punishing me once again, by making me realize with every beat of my heart that the true emotions were fake, the love was full of falsehood and the care was nothing but just virtual, nothing was real

I realize that my fear,regret and loneliness has engulfed me and I kept drifting away far from reasoning capabilities . I felt all alone in crowded rooms thinking to myself that there is no escape from this state of mind as visions of love and hate collage behind my eyes. Echoes of fading laughter and painful cries kept knocking at the door of my mind. Yes, I realized I am falling like a rock, thinking why in the world did I ever jump , don't know how much longer till I hit the ground. I couldn't tell myself why I kept breaking down, but that was one truth that I couldn't deny. I wondered how I started preferring to be left alone,that is because I really lost control over my acts and the words that I was speaking. I see I am coming to an end realize that there is no turning back now,even if I want to.

I couldn't sleep as every now and then I will feel her presence around me in my dreams. I kept on waking up with a shout and blood thumping all over my face as I'll see her with him in my dreams, kissing his lips with her eyes closed. So I gave up sleep and loved to be in the state of semi-consciousness smelling the leaves burn inside the rolled up papers. When I had to deal with the rest of the world, I use to take a deep breath and hide behind my bravest mask. Inside me I kept admitting to myself that I have lost control. . When I use to stand face to face confront with the man in the mirror I see a man so battered and bruised that has nothing left to fight the rest of the battle called life. All these past years I have passed just loving her from deep within. She was my love my friend and my guardian angel. My only reason to stay alive she deserted me without giving me a reason and I lost my only silver lining in my dark and cold world

I use to be a sane human being , with joy and tears, family and friends, springs and autumns. But my life got twisted as she said that she is happy with some other guy. I started walking one step closer to death everyday I tried to convince her that we both could be happy together. But she to kill my efforts with a merciless negative answer.

I still yearn for her. Maybe I always knew, my fragile dreams will be ruined by her someday. Today I got drenched in own sentiments, to the fathomless depths of my heart filled with sufferance and silent agony, after all these years love is all I have given her. Bitterness of my fate engulfed me, when I kept on listening to her whispers breaking all promises that she had ever made to me. Thousand unknown voices taunting me for the love that I have wasted for all these years.

The toxicity of the drugs, silenced all voices in the head and a strange numbness that faded all pains of the broken heart, wiped all memories of the moonlit night when she held my hand and walked beside me on the road. Gone were the thoughts "oh if i could see the love in her eyes again". I lost the count of days and lost track of time. I never use to recognize anyone. I failed to comprehend whatever anyone told me, but myself, a significant reason to what was the cause of this sublime state of mind, a new inherent passive sense of contentment keeps me from thinking how my blooming garden of fantasy was struck by a lightning making it all burnt down to ashes. Though I see my chances fading and the time slipping out of my hand. I still had a kind and forgiving mind behind the crimson psychotic eyes. But everyone in the world around disowned me and pushed me to a place where I saw no reason to continue breathing and force my existence. I opened my arms and embraced the plan of meeting the truest love who never betrays, Death, who once comes to you never leaves you.

So I rose up from the ground stood on the top of a cliff that I knew had the deepest end and pushed myself from there to break free. Now I see the cliff above and i feel the wind brushing through my hair. Descending so fast that I could hardly imagine. I lost control. Yes I am falling , don't know how much longer till I hit the ground. People will call me coward and a quitter, but I did myself a favor by breaking the chains of in and out going gasp of air to keep the mortality. I am going to embrace the end of my life with an undeniable truth of death. It seems like eternity since I am falling now I cant reverse anything but closing my eyes I recollect everything good or bad that I have done. Don't know when death came and went away , and I see myself now surrounded by a bright white light. Don't know where I'm going, to the soft turf Heaven or the burning Hell, but it can't be more beautiful than the moments she loved me or could not be more painful than losing her