My Best Friend

My paralyzed heart and my numbed senses
Kept bleeding profusely
My love torn apart to pieces
Desire to relieve became
A bleak garden of hopes and dreams to cry upon
When my dearest left me forever

Loveless life was never so real
Lifeline of mortality seemed nearing with every breath
I was condemned to solitude and misery
And restless oblivion forever
My dreams were vanquished driven to dust
Aspirations to live a happy life faded away
The respect for emotions died within
Never knew the way out of this anvil chorus

But somewhere stood a messiah right at my back
To heal my heart and make me recognizable to myself
He stood by me in the time when I needed help the most
As he had always promised me
He believed in me like a burning firelight
Tearing away those flickering pages that troubled my sight
Of the book I'm afraid to write
It's the burden of my days, it's the sorrow of my life
That cuts in like a fruit on the blade of a knife

But it's always him with his smile and consoling words saved every extinguishing hope
Taking me out of my sorrow in every life
There are promises that I broke and kept
Sometimes stood still and unspoken, when I should have wept
Hid all secrets, and words to confess
Still I lost everything that I possess
But there was something that I knew that won't die
There's a chapter of trust and faith where the ink will never dry
That is of my only best friend who still walks with me
Through my joy and the pain through the sunshine and rain
Stood by me, helped me fight the biggest battles
Of pain regret agony and insult ,stood by me like a ally


There was a phase of life where friends turning to foe
Conflicted with emotions and nobody won
Still the battles were lost on my side, with a taste of bitter defeat,
That's when I accepted my failure
But in those moments of my deficient physical vigor
He held me up made me a believer, and taught me
How can you climb a mountain to kill the sense of failing
Why do you cross unknown lands, to be victorious
How to build walls to protect from being defenseless

It for the same reason why he still holds on to me
Looking out for me when I drown in my own tears
When I burn in the pain of tyranny
When the reason for breathing seems meaningless
He kept revealing all the lies that was told to me
Every time a masked delude dawned up in the name of love

Before I could die of cold , you wrapped the warmth around me.
Like a fall in the night, you came silently.
But made such a deep impression of your fidelity
And now I have nothing, but that solidarity of yours to reflect upon.
All I wish now is only to vanish once more,
Just like all my yesterdays only you and me without the astriction of false emotions
Without the knowledge of where we're going, or where we'll confine.
I just know deep within that I'll always be languishing
For those moments when we both run away to anonymity
And to some far off lady to love.

Just when I gave up the fight of life.
You came to make the subjugation to a victory ,

And the wrong things right.
Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.
You have a name, I call you my best friend.

.... Saptarshi